I miss you

God Sam i miss you so much. It is getting worse not better, i would do anything to get you back. i hate this so much, i would do anything to change it. Everytime i think things may be getting a little better i fall back into this hole full of this dreadful ache and it is to much to bere. I feel hopeless to do anything, i just want to die from the pain. How much longer sam til i can start to live again. I am starting to think never, i hate this!!!!!!